It took a while to get a good ultrasound of Fleur’s face. When we did, there was no denying she was my kid. That wave of emotion was interesting. It felt like a huge connection to this new entity. Of course, it is good she now looks more and more like her mother not just because why look so ugly but to maintain that bond with mom even as she gets more independent.
Apparently the father feeling like I did indicates good things for their children.
Every time there is an announcement about a canceled show I “watch”, I feel guilty. Having a DVR, I know my watches are tracked. Also, streaming services are paying attention to my activity.
I know in theory that my one watch is not that important in the grand scheme of things, but I still feel that my lack of watching has killed them. Dating, marriage, and fatherhood all mean a lot more commitments to my time that I might otherwise spend on watching television. (And reading.)
But, the reality is that these commitments are more important. They consume quality time. I used to spend so much time watching television because I was filling empty time. Quality > empty.
My DVR is also filling up, so I have a temptation to try and find time to spend watching some stuff to delete some recordings. More often I decided to just purge to free up space without watching because really I am not going to get around to watching them.